Before I start…I warn you…I’m grumpy…and when I’m grumpy, I cuss. xP
It’s been worse lately cause he’s been going to school. Before it was just night school… night classes…and now he’s going during the day. Top it off with the shitty signal, and his funky sleep schedule, and him going to loud places to hang out with his friends so he doesn’t respond to my texts forever…
And you get me, here, alone, with my best friend in Arizona, working my ass off cause hours are being cut left and right at my job, missing the hell out of him… and hating his guts cause he’s not talking to me enough. Well, he’s not texting me enough to satisfy me. I haven’t skyped him, or heard his voice in awhile, and with the few texts a day, I’m just pretty much exhausted.
About to explode at him. I hate, HATE when I get like this. It’s been awhile actually. We were doing pretty well until he started school at this new college of his. I’m proud of him, I’m happy for him, and I really want him to succeed, and I want to support him,
But HELL…talk to me damn it! Does it take me exploding for him to get it?
You know when you have the feeling of just being pissed off, and you’re not getting enough of anything, and it just leaves you in a shitty mood? That’s where I’m at. And I’m just too stubborn to say anything.
He probably has no idea I’m feeling this way, either. Sometimes, I’m glad he doesn’t check this tumblr. I hate to turn this tumblr into a place for me to vent, but just once in awhile… I’ll give in. Right now, I need to. I’ve just got a lot of pent up anger and frustration and loneliness that I’m about to just lose it.
Hope you guys are having a better time.